One day you will find a girl who makes you breakfast every morning. One day you will find a girl who makes your bed. She’ll feed your cat. She’ll remain quiet when you’re overwhelmed. She’ll eat right when you tell her to. She’ll keep her achievements to herself to not make you feel inferior. She’ll spoil you without expectations of doing the same. She’ll keep her hands to herself. She’ll stay in on Friday nights. She’ll leave the friends you don’t approve of. She’ll stick to one glass of wine.
You’ll find a girl that’s passive and obedient. A girl who has sex with you even when she doesn’t feel like it. You’ll find a girl who does not challenge or change you. A girl who remains inside the lines of your comfort. You’ll find a girl that stays when she is bored. A girl that doesn’t expect stimulating conversation or a healthy debate. You’ll find a girl who’s self worth is based on your opinion. A girl who puts effort into herself only for your sake, but doesn’t expect you to do the same.
She will be entirely yours.
A girl molded into the shape you imagine.
Just know that if you’re thinking this girl is going to be me, look away. Take your eyes off of me and turn your body in another direction. Your treasure won’t be found here. Your empty gold isn’t in my chest.
I don’t know whether I’m more upset with you for thinking I could be, or with myself for even trying to be.
Either way I’m happy you’ll find her one day and not find her in me today.